Monday, February 7, 2011

My Major

I am majoring in Elementary Education, K-8 option. I have finally started taking classes on "How to Teach ....". We are 5 weeks into the semester and I am not yet sure that these classes are really going to help me, other than I should be able to write lesson plans in my sleep by the end. This portion of my program is called "Blocks." For those of you that remember, or have been around it, this merely means I have started the methods and practicum portion of my program. There are two "blocks," block A and block B. This semester, I am in Block B.

The biggest difference between the two blocks are the particular classes. Block B includes Teaching Elementary Science, Social Studies and Established Literature for Grades 4-8. Block A includes Art, Music, Math, and Emergent Literature for Grades P-3. Both Blocks include a practicum, which means I am in an elementary classroom for half the day, four days a week. I will be student teaching Spring of 2012 and then graduating in May.

Currently, I am commuting 20 minutes to my practicum classroom. It got interesting today when it started blizzarding. Rather than taking 20 minutes to get home, it took 40. The rest of the U.S. cancels class for that kind of weather. Here, we dig our cars out of 2 feet of snow and go to class, even though we aren't always sure if we're on the road any more or if the car in front of us just seems to know where it's going. I vaguely remember having snow days a couple times when I was little. Most of those times, school was still in session. We just couldn't get out of our yard because of the snow drifts. I also remember Mom bundling us up and having us walk the half mile down the hill to the bus stop. Garrett and I had a blast rolling down the hill in all our snow gear. Those were the days!

I enjoyed school quite thoroughly back then. As I've grown older, I've lost my love for it. I've also become quite jaded towards the university system. I feel like most of my professors know their content, but do not know how to teach. I've also learned to BS my way through papers, not a skill I'm very proud of. I've also lost much of my creativity, which saddens me a lot. Hopefully, I can inspire my students in ways that my professors fail to do for my classmates and myself. I feel hardly prepared to take on my own classroom at this point. I can only hope that two and a half more semesters will help me feel more confident. At least I am enjoying spending my afternoons with a bunch of kindergarteners, and apparently, haven't completely missed my calling.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

My Heart

What do I have a heart for? Jesus. He loves me SO much, whether I have been seeking after Him or only my pleasures. Now the latter doesn't make Him happy, but He still loves me.

Did you know that the Romans had to come up with a new word to describe the love they were seeing displayed by the early Christians? That word was "agape," an unconditional love. I want to love people with agape love, just like my Jesus loves me with agape love. It's definitely not something I'm very good at, but as I learn to know Jesus better, who He is, what His character is, I hope to learn to love like He does.

You always hear that you act and speak like your friends. So if I want to learn to act and speak in love like Jesus, I have to spend time with Him. Growing up, reading my Bible and praying seemed like a chore. I rarely did it because I wanted to. Jesus has been wooing me though. Wooing? Yes. Wooing. And I am falling in love with Him more and more. He treasures, knows, and loves me like no one else can. I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with Him. When my eyes start crossing from reading my textbooks, and I can't comprehend the words on the page, I can open my Bible and comprehend and desire to read for hours. Jesus is my best friend, my Savior, my Lover, my rock, my shelter and I want to follow Him forever.